sometimes i really wonder why i am gay...and how different it would be if i were straight...would i have longer and more sucessful relationships? would i not hang on to people as long as i do? or get attached? would i have the jobs i've had? would i still be in school? would i be the same person? i think i would be relatively the same, just not as sensitive to things..i'd listen to the same music, and like the same movies..and would i be as much of a nester as i already am?