i wrote an entry earlier but my IE froze up so everything got lost...so this is a shorter version

i read up on dysthymic disorder a lot today..i think i need to go in and see a doctor again to get this thing figured out...

i don't think i fit in the fraternity much less the gay community anymore..i don't do the clubs, know or much less am aware of the fashion..i don't fit in any conversation..i can't talk about my long term relationship i experienced in the past...i don't know the music much less care to listen to it...and i'm sort of looked down upon for it...cause most every gay man i have met knows one of those things...and can fit into those conversations