i'm smoking cigarette after cigarette and teaching myself this nico song that is stuck in my head right now. so my car is official broke, so now i have to wait to get it fixed and find out what the price i will pay will be. but i have a strange feeling a few other things will happen. because not just one bad thing happens to me, it just keeps on coming until i am ready to quit life and then it stops and i am stuck in this low down part of my life that is difficult to crawl out of. i really don't want to work today, or tomorrow, or monday. i am not looking forward to what is next. i was, but not anymore.