very interesting two days...i go to the dome and celebrate colm's birthday and take him and rick to the airport so i can use their truck...go home and get online...talk to some guy named kevin and make plans to meet...i got to work and it was horribly long..i'm not suppose to work sunday evenings..i will never again work a sunday evening..that last hour of the night, amy freaks out about this and that, then right after we closed, an older man hit on her in his early-mid 40s and she freaked out about that for the next 30 minutes of closing...

then i meet kevin and we go for a walk around the lake..it was pleasant..we went to the store and he got ice cream and the stupid register girl made this comment, "you look older than what your id says". we went back to his place and ate the ice cream...he was very nice and complimented me often...we then became a bit playful..then i had to go home...he wanted me to stay..i get to the truck and find out i'm stuck so i called him up, he helped me out, and i decided it was late and i did not want to drive home and stayed at his place...he is the same height as me so he had clothes for work the next morning...well, i hardly slept..i couldn't sleep well..i had other things on my mind i guess to sleep...i am going over there again tonight...jeff and i started dating very close to a year ago...

i go to work...and it was long and boring and tiredsome..tomorrow should be better..near the end of it, i find out about my car and how expensive it will be...i felt sick, and scared, and i almost started having a panic attack...this happened one other time when money was a big issue

i go home and feel like shit..tired, angry, upset, hungry..i just wanted to pass out and die...i talked to my mom...she always seems to make things feel alright..i miss her..even though she doesn't understand or accept my sexual orientation

jeff called then..that was odd...he just randomly calls...it's been a year since we started dating and he calls..i never understand how I can have an effect on people's lives