today doesn't feel so good..i was told i'm a jerk by my closest friend...when i thought i gave enough time..my music has ran away from me as well as many people..i don't really know what to do..i feel as if my libido is disappearing..i forget where and who i am at times..fuck trying to 'find myself'..i gave that up long ago

it seems i bask myself in this self pity way too often..perhaps i should stop all together