tonight is just one of those nights..one of those nights where i feel like shit..one of those nights that i'm good at hiding it..one of those nights where i don't know what i'm doing with myself..one of those nights where i feel like being with him..one of those nights i feel like crying alone..one of those nights where i feel like not eating for several hours, or just eat for several hours..one of those nights where i feel like i'm not going to make it to my destination..one of those nights where dreams don't come true...one of those nights where i start to feel sorry for everybody and myself...one of those nights where a stupid commercial will feel like a suckerpunch in the stomach and make me emotionally distressed...

this is what i dream of

..one of those nights where i just want to hold him and just not let go and know that i am safe...one of those nights where i know he'd tell me that he won't ever let me go...one of those nights where romance would make everything better...one of those nights where things won't disappear.....one of those nights lying in the bathtub with bubbles and candles, and nice smells and some wine..one of those nights where we caress eachother and stare into eachothers eyes and never get bored or second guess our love..one of those nights with the blacklight on giggling at all the fuzz on the ground while being a little tipsy...one of those nights where i'm told i'm beautiful....one of those nights endlessly driving without running out of anything to talk about..one of those nights being held while i cry myself to sleep...one of those nights where problems are solved...i dream of nights like these..