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last night kevin and i spoke about things..he said i was beating around the bush about what i really wanted...but then i straight said out..i like you and would like to have more than a friendship with you..the conversation kind of dizzled, because i have this feeling like perhaps it isn't the right thing to do i guess...he kind of made it out to that he'd settle for me or something..since he doesn't think that he could find anybody else that could handle his "boring" lifestyle or something..i mean, i don't mind it now and all, it's just that..i don't know..is that what i really want..someone who thinks they are boring, and that i live a boring lifestyle as well..i don't know..i just get the feeling like i'm waiting for something else

i hung out with my first boyfriend ryan, and his boyfriend..they are so cute together and i'm happy they have lasted so long..it was a lot of fun..just to pick on him and stuff..same ryan i remember..we had a lot of fun..just chatting, going out for coffee, making pizza..moving my car a few times because it's downtown st. paul..can't park in one spot for more than two hours...

then i went over to sarah's to watch a movie and get really good cheese curds..one more day of vacation..and i'm finally getting to my laundry..i'm sure tomorrow will be nice and relaxing, and i won't have to do anything..well, clean..but that's about it i guess