so the holiday season is definitely here, i can feel it really hard..i start seeing couples everywhere, happy and smiling...i see the nice expensive clothing everyone is wearing..cold air and seeing breath...i know it's all just bullshit..and it gets to me..i feel like crawling into this shell..and that's what i've done every year..crawled into this shell, and it suits me just fine..i hate this time of the year...i just like to push away..and not really show was is relaly going on...just keep it hidden..i love listening to the black heart procession and nico and anything else like that during the winter..i'll be listening to a lot of low as well...it really gets under my skin and feels really good...i'm going on about nothing again..i'm tired of going on about nothing..but whatever