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i am really drunk right now, i went out to drinks with kevin and his co-workers after class...i can hardly type right now it feels like..and it's only 9:10, but that's ok, i am pretty hungry since i haven't eaten for nearly 10 hours because i didn't have time to during work...i won football tickets to the game tonight, but gave them away because "i had class" which was true, but i got out once the game started..i hardly win anything, so i just gave the tickets away to this one lady at work because she's such a huge fan, and i'm totally not, i don't know what to eat since there really isn't that much here, and i don't want to puke it up..i guess one of kevin's co-workers is spending the night, so i should really clean up and whatnot, but i'm pretty gone, and my mind is running at about 2000 miles per hour right now, which is particularly not good, because i'm not having good thoughts, i'm actually feeling instead of pushing everything to the back of my mind, controlling my thoughts and saying "everything is alright now" but things could be worse of course....they always can be, but honestly, depression isn't any fun, and boy, have i been pushing everything aside and to the back of my mind....who wants self expression, who wants thoughts...whatever, i don't know what's going on anymore