so what do you do with reaccuring dreams..they actually haven't been the exact same, but there is only one recognizable person in the dreams..the same person..it's been over a year and a half since i have heard from him..and nearly 3 years since we first met...but i can remember 4 of the dreams specifically

the first one he was a clown, and i was at a grocery store waiting for my friend to come back...he was a clown for a minute or two, then went to go change and then we talked and he was asking me out and i was saying "i couldn't do that to myself again"

the second one was also in a grocery store..his apartment was connected to it..on the same floor..people were walking in and out of it, and we spoke for a bit...i don't remember the conversation..and it was like i was looking from overhead as opposed to first person

the third one was me getting into this truck/van thing with a bunch of other people..i was near the back, and there were several people there in the vehicle..and then the driver came in..and it was him..i tried calling to him, but he didn't respond..there was so much chaos and conversation going on that he couldn't hear me

the fourth one, this morning, was me walking around in dawn or just as the sun was setting and there was some sort of event going on..stores were all open, and the streets seemed european(of what i have seen from the movies anyway)..and i walked into a few stores..and then i was leaving one of them, and i thought i saw him working..he was a clerk..had a full goatee that didn't look trimmed..i walked out, and he stopped me, and then i really realized that it was him..and we talked..about what, i can't remember..it was just bizarre

so yeah, reaccuring..kind of weird...i was talking to a girl about it at work..and she was saying what she thought..and hit the note of closure...i have a problem with closure..meaning that if i don't have closure with someone or something, i freak, and i dwell, and wreck myself...so yeah