five days..nothing to communicate in five days..i'm really realizing a bunch of things..about my confidence level..when i'm out and about..around people..i have really great confidence, but honestly, when i'm alone..i'm scared, i'm scared of things..the future, what will happen, what i'll become..i'm afraid of health, decisions, money, being alone...though i shouldn't have to worry about those things, i shouldn't be concerned...i need to live more carefree and less bottled up

okay, i need to go to bed and forget things for the night