i feel like i've been having a lot more anxiety problems lately than usual...like it would maybe be once a month..but now it's like once or twice a week, and i don't know how to feel about that really...i don't want to see a doctor again...i don't know if that will help, but i guess i could always try..i get really anxious around christian, and i think he really notices that...i have stomach problems from it...i guess i'm nervous about being in a relationship, being committed with someone..i don't think i jumped into anything too quickly..i mean, i basically had the whole summer living it free, and i needed something to settle me down a bit
i'm just afraid of fucking this whole thing up..fucking up a good thing that could be a great thing in my life...a great turn, from all of the bad ones..i think i ought to get to bed and try to sleep...hopefully i won't lie around and get all antsy and nerve wrecky..